| Jill Zilla (rowr!) ( @ 2001-11-10 02:20:00 |
an attempt to describe goals and my time as it actually is
It's been some time since I wrote about goals. This is not
a particularly interesting entry, but I am sworn to write
about goals whether it is interesting or not. Here are some:
- The five-year plan includes spending at least six months
outside of the USA. Likely more.
Hmmm. Maybe I should write instead about what I'm working on.
- Work. I want to write some code. I've been avoiding writing
code for money for years now, because the design part of coding
stirs up the scary stuff that came up when I was in massage school.
I want to learn a big complex system and be able to make it work
a lot better. - Learning Mandarin. I feel this could use a lot more time
than I am giving it, since work is quite demanding. I miss
the furious pace at which I used to be learning to write characters.
And learning vocabulary could use more time than I'm giving it. - Riding my bicycle. This isn't really something I'm working
on; it's something I'm making the time for. It makes me feel
fully alive. - I have been making more efforts to reach out and connect with
people more. I couldn't do that for a while after massage school.
And it's taking more effort now with an economic recession hitting
in these parts and the people I had met moving away.
And things I'm not working on right now, but am thinking about:
- I've been itching to do yoga, almost physically itching.
My muscles are crying for it. And so is my mind. For the first
time since massage school, I can contemplate doing something
meditative without feeling dread. - Meditating. I did it once, a few weeks ago, at a time
when I really needed it. But it is only regular meditation,
not occasional meditation, that causes me to feel that I am
losing my sanity. - Music. I am moving into a place where I can have a piano.
Now what to do with that? I've also been tempted to take up
the accordion. - Dancing. I just love to do it, in spite of the disadvantages,
most of which have to do with aching knees and the difficulty
of finding dance clothes.